|Sunday, August 15th, 2010|
2:46 am - ResultS!
|Friday, December 12th, 2008|
2:42 am - WTFffFFFF
|Thursday, November 6th, 2008|
5:50 am - It looks interesting.
I see that it will happen. :]
current mood: oh so happy
|Friday, February 8th, 2008|
12:25 am - Application
"At that moment, I knew that I had to have him, even if it was the last thing I did. I achieved my wish. Unfortunately, it also did happen to be the last thing I did. Quite literally."|
"Most of the things I know about my best friend, I've found out through Google searches. Not through him."
current mood: wispy
|Monday, February 4th, 2008|
6:45 pm - What is wrong with me?
Someone invited me to join a facebook group for supporting Mike Huckabee. It had a picture on it, and only the picture caused me to question whether or not he's really as bad as people say he is. I dunno... the picture just made him seem so helpless and harmless to me. It made me feel bad for him, and almost made him seem kind of cute to me. And then I started to read his viewpoints for that reason. I don't agree with them, but somehow I still believe that he's an okay person.|
Here's the picture:
current mood: sad
|Saturday, January 26th, 2008|
9:28 pm - ANOTHER ONE OF THESE
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?|
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, MediaPlayer, iPod, etc.).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song thats playing.
5. When you go to the next question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
1. Opening Credits:
Alice Deejay - Back In My Life. (That should be for mourning over a break-up, srsly.)
2. Waking Up:
Malice Mizer - Secret Track. (This would be like if I woke up in some strange crystal castle.)
3. First Day At School:
They Might Be Giants - Token Back To Brooklyn. (If I went to school in Brooklyn, MAYBE.)
4. Falling in Love:
People Are Wrong - Boomerang. ("Love is like a boomerang, a supreme continuum"?)
5. Fight Song:
Spiraling - Is That The Last Glass of Water?. (Sounds more like a compromise to me.)
6. Breaking Up:
Das Ich - Egodram. (That's a scary breakup)
They Might Be Giants - Wearing A Raincoat.
Logan Whitehurst - Big Mistake. (Well, that's just great)
9. Mental Breakdown:
Box Car Racer - There Is.
They Might Be Giants - La Dolce.
Kelis - Milkshake. (Well, this song IS from 2003...)
12: Getting Back Together:
Logan Whitehurst - At The Wig Store.
13. Losing Your Virginity:
Logan Whitehurst - Jen And Elvis (WTF!!!! hahaha. Threesome?)
North Core Project - How Long Can You Go?. (HAHA. I guess this would mean, "how long can you be married without getting a divorce?")
15: Birth of Child:
Tears For Fears - Shout.
16. Final Battle:
Sufjan Stevens - The Predatory Wasp Of The Palisades Is Out To Get Us!. (HEHE)
17. As You Lay Dead:
New Order - Blue Monday.
18. Funeral Song:
Andrew Bird - Dark Matter.
19. End Credits:
The Killers - On Top.
current mood: indescribable
|Monday, December 24th, 2007|
9:10 am - I wish that that could just be fine.
That's our cat now. The neighbors left her behind when they moved. She liked us better than she liked them. Her name is Josephina. I guess that she's not really mine, because I'm moving in but a few days, but it's still pretty exciting.
current mood: stressed
|Monday, December 10th, 2007|
10:21 am - Becoming insane
Post the first TWO (real) sentences from each month of 2007...|
January: Once again, my heart is not with me. Hah, more walking along blindly through these hallways.
February: Yeah, so... on Tuesday, I went with Jen to her school. Upon walking through the hallway, we passed her former psychology teacher, Sanjay Paul.
March: Wow, it's March! :o That's all I can say to express my "astonishment".
April: Yesterday, my stomach really hurt and I could barely walk 'cause of it, so I stayed home bells 1-4. I came in at lunch and went to bells 5-7.
May: I've always told myself that I'd do something weird or just generally be strange, the last few weeks of high school. Now, it's here, and I'm just not totally sure what to do.
June: As soon as school's out, I unconsciously begin to screw up my sleep schedule. This explains why I'm up at 3AM printing out an AIM conversation between me and Jon, for the purpose of taping it in here to describe some of the finer details of my most recent trip.
July: No entries in July.
August: This is not the entry that will explain EVERYTHING. No, that entry will have to be written in the evening, when I reside in Kiawah Island with my parents, when there is nothing better to do.
September: Some of the most notable events in my summer haven't been transcribed yet, simply for the reason that they are too detailed to be written out. I normally write things down, but when everything piles up, it's really hard to sit down and find the willpower to spend hours documenting everything that's been happening.
October: I've felt very inspired about upcoming plans, recently! It's so hard to believe that it's October, mainly because it's still a little too warmish outside for my preference.
November: Well, in the past few days, there has definitely been quite an odd turn of events. In several ways, really.
December: It's so strange that the time is nearly upon me. ;_; I don't know if I fully believe it yet.
current mood: uncertain
|Saturday, September 29th, 2007|
2:44 am - Pay attention.
the sometimes sad but inescapable truth that you can't hold someone's love against them.|
That's the line that stuck out to me from the movie that I saw this night. I didn't remember it from the book. I guess that now it has more meaning to me.
I said something to somebody today that was very important, but they did not hear me.
(the book was way better than the movie, btw.)
current mood: contemplative
|Saturday, September 22nd, 2007|
1:37 am - Obligated to the study of my mind
A feeling just washed over me that says that I don't HAVE to go to sleep.|
But it passed very quickly...
I wish I could have that feeling of no obligations more often. It's like even when I have no obligations, I still feel obligated to something. Does that make sense? Maybe it's okay, though.
current mood: sleepy
|Wednesday, September 19th, 2007|
9:19 pm - Moving on to
I just got back from dinner with my friend Scotty. I met him at work a while back. He got transferred to the night shift, though. The same thing that happened to my last decent friend at work! :p Don't get me wrong; the people there are okay in general. They can be fine to talk to and all. I just rarely find a person there that I have things in common with. Doesn't matter, I suppose... I won't be working there much longer. Ha!|
I'm going to edit Scotty's book for him. He's been working on it for the past seven years, apparently. It's a sci-fi type of novel, and it sounds really interesting from all that he's told me. I will get paid for this! He obviously isn't sure yet how the book will do, so I might not get paid much at all if people think it sucks. Oh well, it's still an interesting project to undertake, in any case.
I'm probably going to be spending a lot more time at home. I changed my work schedule so that I can work more, because there are a lot of things I have to do and places I have to go. I sometimes feel like I have more fun staying at home, talking to friends on the phone and online, and doing little projects, than I do going out in big groups. Of course, I do have a select few friends that I really enjoy doing things with, but there are other people that make hanging out a big hassle! :p
I have a few DVDs to watch, things to edit, and people to talk to.
I understand that a new chapter in my life has begun.
current mood: hopeful
|Tuesday, September 18th, 2007|
2:57 pm - Embed yourself.
Okay, so I was wrong. People do comment on LJ posts. It was GJ that people weren't commenting on much. I guess that's just because I don't know as many people on there. Or maybe because my posts were too vague. I will never know.|
Things are going to change soon, a lot. I have things planned out in my head, but rarely does the true outcome match the playouts in one's head. I need to tell a couple people a couple things... things that will change each of our outlooks on each other, most likely. I already did this with one person, and it seems like things have been better with him since then.
When it's safe to write how things really are, maybe I'll start doing that. My posts might be friends only, though...
current mood: okay
12:17 am - Dusting things off
Okay, I'm updating my goddamn livejournal.|
I went to a couple TMBG shows, and shit happened. But I still had an experience, which is good.
I will be going to more in the future.
I am relocating soon.
Nobody will comment on this entry.
current mood: bitter
|Monday, June 25th, 2007|
9:44 pm - The customers scattered on the tile floor
I have so many things to do, and so far, I've not gotten started on any of them, really. I have a "Facere" list upstairs in my room. It's on a post-it and it sticks to my (large) dresser.|
The following things are written on it:
-Go through old clothes
-Straighten up room
-File old papers
-Format/put my music on my new iPod (which was freeee, Mike gave it to me :])
-Schedule test and get drivers license
-Organize hard drive and get laptop
-Write a story that someone requested me to write
-Take some photos that someone requested me to take.
I do plan to do these things, but first I have to get in the right state of mind, you see. I also need to write a lot more. So many things have happened this summer that I just haven't adequately documented yet. :[
Do you ever like to do or say things just to see what others' reactions will be? Maybe I should start doing that more often... I'd like to see what I can and can't do and what will yield positive or negative results.
I've been invited to go to IHOP tonight at 11:30PM by Veronica, whom I work with. She's a pretty decent person, compared to most of my coworkers. I invited Brandon along too, because Alex Everson is already going. Alex E used to be my friend a while back; now we don't talk so often. I usually dislike going out with people I don't know well, but I figure that I should tonight. I won't be gone long, afterall!
current mood: hopeful
|Sunday, June 24th, 2007|
8:38 pm - The start of a blackout, I hope not.
I'm writing in this ( http://www.greatestjournal.com/~chaosbydesign ) journal because of Jen. (I suppose a bit because of Andrew as well.) This one in particular. I suppose I might as well cross-post it to my livejournal, because there's not much sense having it on this one and not on the other one. The idea of writing in this stems from the fact that not everybody really knows other people as well as they think they do. People have to see all sides of a person before they can really say that they truly know them and the way they think. I think that seeing how people write about their life and thoughts really helps a person to be understood a lot better by those around them, so I'm going to try to write in this throughout my free period (from now until March). I'm not promising in any way that I'll always be in the right state of mind to write, but I'll try my best.|
It's strange though how I actually want to do this, because I don't feel in any way comfortable writing about what my life is really about, or what I really think. In the conversation I had last night with Jen, I was talking about how if people are too blunt about what they really think or do, it often makes them seem moronic just because of how precisely they cite what they do with their lives. If they disclose their jealous thoughts, their irrational ones, their shameful actions. I'm not sure why it has to be that way, because everybody makes mistakes and has dumb thoughts, quite often probably. But people who write about it and seem totally fine with it have always eluded me.
I guess that everything starts somewhere, so I might as well disclose one thing: Almost everything I find interesting about my life has to do with other people and their actions. I'm not sure if most people would guess that about me, but it's true. It's not that I don't do anything by myself, but I often find myself pondering about why other people do the things they do, my relationships with those surrounding my life, and problems to solve involving them. I have set plans for myself, but often I revolve them around other people. The strange thing though, is that I don't even necessarily like most people. A lot of people I meet are nowhere near being on the same wavelength I am, and this makes it somewhat difficult to make good friends. But I'm talking about the people who I am good friends with, or anybody that affects me significantly... directly, or indirectly.
I'm not sure how to go about writing about them though, because I'm not sure if I would upset them by writing certain things, or if I would let something personal of theirs slip. I guess that I'll have to do lots of consulting before writing stuff. :p
Nothing to write about this day in particular; this entry has served to just be an opener, perhaps.
current mood: indescribable
|Friday, June 22nd, 2007|
2:11 pm - Roll out that special head
So, iownyouboth, your LiveJournal reveals...|
You are... 9% unique (blame, for example, your interest in unfamiliar parts of town) and 19% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are popular. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are keen to please. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is absurdly obscure.
Your overall weirdness is: 117(The average level of weirdness is: 27.
You are weirder than 100% of other LJers.)
Find out what your weirdness level is!
|Wednesday, January 31st, 2007|
9:21 pm - WTF interests collage.
|Tuesday, September 19th, 2006|
9:27 pm - ANOTHER ONE OF THESE THINGS AGH
The iTunes Oracle:|
1. What do you think of me, iTunes?
The Postal Service - Such Great Heights
Interpretation: It thinks I'm high, I guess.
2. What do my friends really think of me?
Orbital - Nothing Left
Interpretation: My friends think that there is no more of me to go around?
3. How can I make people like me more?
Die Krupps - The Machineries Of Joy
Interpretation: I should act joyful, and like a machine. Then people will like me more.
4. What does my crush truly think of me?
System Of A Down - Sugar
Interpretation: Uhh... I'm sweet as sugar? Wtf.. I dunno. This is weird.
5. Do people secretly lust after me?
They Might Be Giants - Experimental Film
Interpretation: Looks like everybody wants to make experimental films with me. ;D
6. How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Evanescence - October
Interpretation: Have sex in October.
7. Will I ever have children?
Garbage - The World Is Not Enough
Interpretation: I don't think the world is good enough to bring children into? The other interpretation is that I'll have too many children to fit in the world. But I don't like that one. I don't think I want children.
8. Do you know where your children are?
BBMak - Out Of My Heart
Interpretation: OMG they're in my heart.. I mean out of it. I guess that means that I don't love them.
9. What should I do with my life?
Colony 5 - Future
Interpretation: I should live my life in the future.. Or plain just HAVE a future? Hahah. Kinda ironic that I got this song for a question about the future.
10. Will I have a happy life?
Infected Mushroom - Stretched
Interpretation: I'll have a long and "stretched out" life? :/ Uh.
11. Why must life be so full of pain?
Seabound - Coward 2k2
Interpretation: There are too many cowards in life. >:0.
12. What do you think happiness is?
John Gorka - I Saw A Stranger With Your Hair
Interpretation: Haha. A stranger with your hair is happiness?
13. How can I make myself happy?
BBMak - Always Know Where You Are (Weird, another BBMak song, and I ONLY have these two songs by him.)
Interpretation: By always knowing where you are! Mwahaha... I can be happy stalking you.
14. Will I die happy?
Interpretation: I will resurrect after death. Just like OMGJESUS!
15. Can you give me some good advice?
Hedwig and the Angry Itch soundtrack - The Origin Of Love
Interpretation: I WOULD like to know the origin of love. ^^;
16. What is the nature of the Universe?
Utada Hikaru - Simple And Clean
Interpretation: The universe is simple and clean? I think not. It seems more complex and dirty to me.
Songs: 1953 (on ipod currently) 1079 on my computer alone.
Sort by song:
First: '85 Radio Special Thank You - They Might Be Giants
Last: ZYX - They Might Be Giants
Sort by time:
Shortest: I dunno.
Shortest That I’ve Actually Listened To: iDURR
Longest: TMBG Podcast 4A (30:48) (Does this count? If not it’s Les Claypool - Pigs (11:44)
Longest That I’ve Actually Listened To: Heheeh.
Sort by artist:
First: ! Bruno Fergani; FTP !
Sort by album:
Top Five Most Played Songs (not including repeat artists):
1 - Cake - Commissioning A Symphony In C
2 - The Postal Service - Be Still My Heart
3 - Alice Deejay - No More Lies
4 - DJ Icey / Kay Cee - Escape
5 - Genesis - Turn It On Again
First song that comes up on Shuffle: They Might Be Giants - Anecdote
“sex”, how many songs come up? 20
“death”, how many songs come up? 24
“love”, how many songs come up? 232 Hahahaha
“you”, how many songs come up? 584
“final”, how many songs come up? 15
current mood: ecstatic
|Sunday, August 20th, 2006|
12:04 pm - Stole these from Richie
1. How am I feeling today?:|
The Machineries Of Joy
2. Will I get far in life?
3. How do my friends see me?:
Open Your Eyes
4. Where will I get Married?:
5. What is my best friend's theme song?:
6. What is the story of my life?:
7. What was highschool like?:
8. How can I get ahead in life?
Love My Way
9. What is the best thing about me?:
10. How is today going to go?:
Where Your Eyes Don't Go
11. What is in store for me this weekend?
12. What song describes my parents?:
13. To describe my grandparents?
14. How is my life going?:
Doing The Unstuck
15. What song will they play at my funeral?:
Point Of Know Return
16. How does the world see me?:
Livin My Life
17. Will I have a Happy Life?
18. What do my friends really think of me?:
Here With Me
19. Do people secretly lust after me?:
20. How can I make myself happy?:
Birdhouse In Your Soul
21. What should I do with my life?:
22. Will I ever have children?
Turn To Stone
23. What is some good advice for me?
24. What's that smell?
What You Live By
25. What is my signature dancing song?:
You Won't Find Me Here
26. What do I think my current theme song is?:
You're Not Alone
27. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
I Paid My Money
28. What type of men/women do you like?:
Will I Ever Make It Home
29. Now click next and that will be the subject of this bulletin
30. Your overall theme song?
What do you think of me, Random Music Player?
1. Soul Of Ice
Will I have a happy life?
2. Join Me
What do my friends really think of me?
3. Freak On A Leash
Do people secretly lust after me?
4. Until The Day I Die
How can I make myself happy?
What should I do with my life?
6. In My Secret Place
Why must life be so full of pain?
7. God Takes Care Of The Little Things
How can I catch a leprechaun?
8. Sleeping In A Submarine
Will I ever have children?
9. On The Way Down
Will I die happy?
Can you give me some advice?
11. Big City Takeover
What do you think happiness is?
12. Out Of My Heart
Do you have any advice to give over the next few hours/days?
What will tomorrow be like?
What will next year be like?
15. The Village In The Morning
|Thursday, July 20th, 2006|
10:44 am - Wtf.
Only because everybody seems to be making these, so I was curious as to what the hell they were.
current mood: grateful